Sta.sh
Emotional ...For the first time in, like, 2 years.
I suck.
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So yeah, after the longest dryspell in my ENTIRE LIFE, I've started to feel a little bit of motivation again. I have to, like, JUMP on it as soon as it hits, or it's gone - and it could be weeks before I feel it again. Which means I'll pull my ass out of bed at 3am, when I work at 7am, to draw. This is more important to me than sleep, so I do what I have to.
Sadly I'm not as motivated in regards to photography... I've been focusing on rebuilding my drawing skills, since the years-long block has... well, destroied a talent I once had. Translation? I suck huge. I can still manipulate Photoshop so no one knows I can't draw, but when it comes to pencil-to-paper? There's a reason I haven't uploaded sketches. My sketches are embarassing. I have a very good grasp of the human form and where body parts should be, and that's basically all my sketches are: Blobs directing me to the position I should draw the details in once the sketch is in Photoshop. Once it's there, though, I'm golden - when you know what's what in Photoshop and how to make it work for you instead of against you, you can do pretty much anything; my sketches are suddenly no longer crap! Who knew? No one, 'cause I destroy my shitty sketches as soon as they're scanned in. Bleh...
So yeah, long story short? I've been practicing my sketching more. It's coming back to me faster than I feared it would, but it's going slower than I had hoped. ...If that makes sense.
My little sister, who is currently studying graphic design in college, has given me (brief) lessons in Illustrator; a program I had no previous experience with before. So, while I'm getting myself comfortable with using the program, I've been putting out silly comics revolving around real-life events that gave me lawls (for practice). The goal, for this, is to one day become as comfortable with Illustrator as I am with Photoshop, since Illustrator does make lineart a million times easier/faster. It's a slow process, but every time I doddle in Illustrator I get a little bit better, so it's definitely paying off.
I'm hoping that, once spring starts looking more like flowers and sunlight, and less like slush and mud, I'll feel like taking my camera out. But I've said that before. I feel like... I've lost my muse. That is a long story that I don't particularly want to get into right now, but someone who was in my life previously who motivated me to take beautiful photos isn't anymore. That's not to say his absence is the sole "blame" for my lack of photography; I haven't taken many photos in the last few years (comparatively to previous years) - which is much longer than the past 6 months in which he's been gone. It has just been a lot harder for me to motivate myself than it was when he was here...
Depression is a bitch, and that's all I'm going to say on that matter.
So, yes. TL;DR?
- Sketching more, slowly making progress.
- Photoshop is love.
- Practicing with Illustrator.
- Photography is blah right now.
And, as a last note? I love my roommates. Each and every one of them. They are so incredibly awesome, and they've been a great support (and source of inspiration for silly comics) for me.
